When an Aries' looks for work...

Aries (March 21-April 19)
Your traits: ambitious, inventive, confident and independent. You can be impatient, but your creativity and high energy inspire people and make you a natural leader.

Compatible jobs: Look for jobs that allow you to flex your imagination and work either independently or as a leader. Ariens often succeed in creative fields such as journalism, publicity, publishing and advertising. A leadership position in the military or law enforcement is another potential match.

Famously successful Ariens: Leonardo Da Vinci, Aretha Franklin, Thomas Jefferson

We'll do it all
Everything
On our own

We don't need
Anything
Or anyone

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

I don't quite know
How to say
How I feel

Those three words
Are said too much
They're not enough

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

Let's waste time
Chasing cars
Around our heads

I need your grace
To remind me
To find my own

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Forget what we're told
Before we get too old
Show me a garden that's bursting into life

All that I am
All that I ever was
Is here in your perfect eyes, they're all I can see

I don't know where
Confused about how as well
Just know that these things will never change for us at all

If I lay here
If I just lay here
Would you lie with me and just forget the world?

Wants and needs...

Ok, so yes I love the color purple. But, do I love it enough to add another uneeded guitar to my already too big guitar collection? Ah, that is the true question. So, what could I buy for the amount of dinero I would spend on yet another instrument? Let's see...

• 859 individual purchases at The Dollar Store (less tax)
• 6 (approx) round trip tickets to Kansas City from Chi-town
• 1/3 of a night with Ashley Dupre (unless her price has already gone up)
• Pay .0000000001 % of the national debt
• Fill my tank a little over 17 times
• Spend the weekend in Melbourne (FL not Australia)
• 2 years of gym membership plus tanning because I am so fucking white
• 1/5 of a night with Ashley Dupre and then Culver's with 15 friends to celebrate
• A Sabres' game, 2 Labatt Blue and a dozen hot wings from the Anchor (bleu cheese not that ranch dressing shit)
• Visit my mom and buy her something beautiful to wear to the Sabres' game

Life in front on your eyes...

Quick post.

I was just cleaning up from making dinner when I noticed that the sun had broken through the clouds and was just amazing. I was smart enough to have my apartment's deck face the west, because I knew how beautiful my evenings would be when I returned from work come summertime. Anyway, as I stood outside smiling at the sun, I noticed in the backyard of one of the row of homes to the south that there was a man smoking on his deck. What made me laugh out loud was the fact that there was a child looking out through the sliding glass door at this man. The child had apparently learned how to turn the porch light on and off, and was showing off this new found talent to the man. The man showed no interest for a moment and then suddenly turned around "boogieman" style and hobbled (because everyone knows that is how boogiemen walk, which could best be described as Marlon Brando chasing his grandson in the tomato garden in GF1) towards the house. When the man got close to the door, the child ran away, obviously hysterical. The smiling man turned, and walked back out to the edge of the deck.


...within a just a moment the porch light began to flicker again.

Above is a pic from last Saturday night's gig. We had a great time and the crowd was just awesome! I have to say that I came to Chicago with much trepidation. Was really a matter of trying to fulfill some unwritten prophecy I designed in my mind. A lot of it was because I truly felt as if I had wrung KC dry...obviously that isn't true - but just try to understand the mind-set at the time. So much has happened in the last 10 days or so, and honestly all that has happened has set a cornerstone for how I believe I will live the rest of my life. Blah, blah, blah... So instead of continuously pontificating, I will list all the good that is going on 'round hea'...

A little love fest for all to smile about:

• Kristy has chosen to accept me back into her life as a friend. I would write more about that, but just know that it has filled a void and enabled me to have some closure and clarity to a time in my life that I hold very dear. Kristy helped me to make sense of the transitional chaos in my life after I left home. She never took sides, she listened objectively and gave her opinion...she also hugged pretty darn good - and that's always a plus! I will make you proud that you chose to do this. I love you my friend and I can't wait to see you sometime soon...
• Beth and I have chosen to attempt the "long distance thing" again. Beth is a strong, independent and amazing woman. I think we both have decided that our feelings for each other will fill the miles between KC and Naperville. She and I both tried the "dating" thing and it's YUCK! I would rather see her 6 times a year than be with anyone else. She is very kickass don't ya know. I have missed her rugged exterior and her soft emotional side...but not for long - as I write I am making plans to visit KC in the next couple of weeks. Maybe sooner, woo hoo....white pizza and smoothies for everyone barkeep!
• Last but not least is the wonderful and NON-NEGOTIABLE relationship I have with Miriam. She has been there to temper me, laugh with me and share a Corona after all of the years, the ups and the downs. She is just as beautiful today as she was when I met her, both physically and down deep in her heart. We will always be there for each other, and if my actions in life have been questionable - one thing I can be certain of, they never were when it came to Miriam. Poor kid is very sick as I write this, and my prayers and words of comfort are with you honey. I will see you soon to get that yard looking all Scotty Stylie...

Let's not forget a couple more VERY important people:

• Neil, you kicked my ass last weekend. Either you need to get older, or I need to somehow get younger. Next time let's go antiquing, wine tasting and miniature golfing...that's more my speed. (You know I'm kidding - I was really thinking sky diving)
• All the guys in the band, Tom, Mike and Bob. You have all become my very good friends and I love our collaboration. I still think we should wear light blue vinyl suits, but that's just me.

See you don't have to drink to show the love...

Have a GREAT weekend, and kiss someone wouldja?

Ok, ok

I am better now. It is a beautiful day here in Chicago and it's also Friday. And, if you are reading this blog you are breathing. That is a good thing as well.

Happy happy, joy joy

If I were a Disney character, I would have a fucking cartoon bluebird on my shoulder.

Words of advice...

I would like to make this as simple as it can be. My intention was to write a profound statement discussing the many pros and cons of opening up your life via blog. I was going to advise very politely that the venue is for many different perspectives and emotional states. I was also going to share that writing in general is good for the heart, soul, mind and of course - the reader. I am not going to write that post though... I am instead going to say one thing. If you can't handle what I fucking write about...then don't fucking read this blog. If your only purpose for coming to this blog is to gather ammunition or subconsciously prove to yourself that your life is so shallow that you need mine to live vicariously through...then stay the fuck off. I am sick of all the shit I receive from posting on this blog. Get a fucking life or better yet just enjoy it for what it is worth. It is supposed to my place to reflect, and not a place for you to pass fucking judgement.

This is my blog and you are guests here bitches!