Have you ever read something and found yourself shaking your head in a positive way saying things like: "That is so true?" and/or "Wow, I wish I had said that..." I read something like that today.
I believe that way down deep there is at least one thing in life that we would take back if we could. I have about fifty of them (maybe 60). I don't dwell on them like I used to. I leave that for others. I have sinned and made horrible mistakes, but I have tried to move forward and learned very difficult lessons in the meantime. Lessons that haunt me, challenge me and motivate me every single day to be a better person. I will continue to do all of the above I am sure (I will make mistakes)...but I have survived. And, believe it or not - so has everyone else around me. Sometimes "meant to be" means exactly that.
Oh yeah sure, I used to wish for time to come back (knowing what I know now) and let me make the right choices. But what exactly were the "right choices?" Today I remember all of my mistakes with every choice I make going forward. I used to try to be perfect for those around me. Now I find perfection in just knowing what I need to improve upon every day. And the people who love me see me for who I am way down deep inside. Those people I cherish and thank for letting me "have it" ( ...to the MOON Scotty!) when I needed it, and also for shaking their head in a positive way when I do the right thing.
Anyway. Today is an awesome day. It's warm. I am alive and loved...and that is what I need to remember. I am also eating a kickass pizza while I write this...
I hope someday I can have one wish though. I pray for it all the time.
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